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Imperfection, being an absolute truth is perfection
Created on 2003-05-12 13:54:34 (#1056132), last updated 2004-01-19
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Basic Info| Name: | Carolina |
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| Birthdate: | 09-13 |
| Location: | Hollywood, Florida, United States |
BioIt's only after you've lost everything that you're free to do anything.
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you could ask, why not kill myself then. because i love you. because you exist. that alone is so much that it won't allow me to die. and since i must be alive in order to know that you are, i will live in the world as it is, in the manner of life it demands. not halfway, but completely. not pleading and running from it, but walking out to meet it, beating it to the pain and the ugliness, being first to choose the worst it can do to me. ... and only within my own mind, only where nothing can touch it, kept sacred by the protecting wall of my own degradation, there will be the thought of you and the knowledge of you.
That is beautiful.
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you could ask, why not kill myself then. because i love you. because you exist. that alone is so much that it won't allow me to die. and since i must be alive in order to know that you are, i will live in the world as it is, in the manner of life it demands. not halfway, but completely. not pleading and running from it, but walking out to meet it, beating it to the pain and the ugliness, being first to choose the worst it can do to me. ... and only within my own mind, only where nothing can touch it, kept sacred by the protecting wall of my own degradation, there will be the thought of you and the knowledge of you.
That is beautiful.
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